Annyeonghigaseyo Sem 1, Annyeonghaseyo Sem 2!

Assalamualaikum dears..

Starting this post with d feeling of grateful,
Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..
Thank you Allah for this result! I seriously felt astonished to see my results slip..
It's not that great for others but great enough for me..
I got B+!!!! Yeah it's B, not A.. tapi takpe, I know what I did.. So dat grade suits me! Actually rasa mcm grade tu bagus sgt nak banding dengan camne aku prepare utk final exam tu.. SERIOUSLY!
Yelah, prepared 1 month before.. one day before exam, after finished doing revision with housemates, I felt totally blank! On the exam day itself, I didn't know what's left in my mind and I just answered anything that I know.. About 50% questions I answered with doubt! Perghhh~ mmg payah nk describe!!!
Dats y, aku happy sgt eventhough dpt B+... Almost A weh!! hehehe.. Cheongmal!!

With that, I finished my sem 1 of my medic course.. Looking forward for sem 2.. a tougher sem I could say..
Oh yeah, forget to say dat, my results actually show an increase! Starting with D--> C --> B --> B+
Alhamdulillah.. So for next sem, I shall work harder!!! to achieve an A insya-Allah..

For semester 2, my destiny as a 1st year medic student wud be determined.. Either I'll continue my 2nd year or I have to repeat sem or year! Takut kannnn!!! o.O
Tapi takpe.. I learn alot during sem 1.. Insya-Allah I need to improve myself, physically, mentally and spiritually!!

advice from previous post! heehee Nadiah, take note!! ^^

At the Brink of Sem 1 Final Exam Results

Assalamualaikum, annyeong!!!

Ermmm, now I feel sooooooo nervous!! I don't know how many butterflies were there in my stomach!
Tomorrow, at 4pm sharp, my sem 1 final exam results would be released!!!
Omo, omo, omo.... Astaghfirullahalazim.. TAKUT NYERRRR!!!

Seriously, I dream of an A just like other students but I feel that it's kinda hard to achieve it.. I still remember how difficult the exam was. 100 questions comprise of biochem, anatomy n physiology, pharmaco, pathology, microbio, hormones, human development and community medicine!!! Waaaaaaaaa almost 50% questions I felt unsure with my answers.. but still, nothing is impossible, I can get any grade. It's all marked anyway.. I believe, Allah is the best planner. We will get what we need not what we want..
Maybe, if I got bad results, it's a sign that I should work harder, give more attention to lectures and study, study, study MORE! You know, sem 2 would be tougher than sem 1. Things get harder as we climb up the tiers. Getting bad results may help me to boost up my tolerance level towards hard work.

Well, I never perceive anything positively because I like to think of the negative sides so that I'll be well-prepared for the worst. If I got good results, I would be sooo much thankful but if otherwise, I shall look on it positively and try to move on and improve myself. That's how I treat my student life. Tapi tu lah, stress la sikit bila fikir bnde2 negatif nih sblm dpt results.. huhu rse nk nangis pon ade!! Uwaaaa.. :'(

Therefore Nadiah, when you got your result tomorrow,
just remember that....

Allah knows what's the best for you! Maybe your previous effort was not enough to gain such a great success. Everything happens with reasons! Just smile and live your life. Work harder!!!
May you manage to go through all the hardships to be an excellent doctor!! :') Insya-Allah..

Stupid Me!

Annyeong dear blog!
Hmmm just wanna tell how stupid I was yesterday..
U know, I'd kept my secret for about 4yrs but finally I revealed it yesterday directly to that person who's related..

...... I told my ex-crush that I did like him from form 1 till 3......

Stupid rite??? Huuuuuuaaaaaaa...
I was soooooooooooooo embarrassed, luckily I just told him through Line..
I don't know how can I meet him in the future..
I think, I won't meet him even when he wanna leave to Indonesia..

BUT, it was a relieve that finally he knows..
I wait sooooooo long for this time!!
It just that I didn't expect things gonna be happened yesterday..
Arghhhhh.. It's no longer a secret..!!
But kwanchanhayeo!!!
I don't like him anymore.. It's just a puppy love story..

Dear AA,
Hopefully u can treat me normally as usual..
That crush thingy is just a past history that had been written nicely in my secondary school memories..

Congrats Nadiah,
Your mission is now accomplished!

Plan for Final Exam

Assalamualaikum.. Sejak2 aku ter-delete diari kt handphone, rasa mcm dunia aku kosong..hahaha bongok jer.. Bayangkan laa diari tu dh setahun kot aku tulis n ade about 115 posts pastu disebabkan satu klik aku terus terpadam semua.. T____T

Okay, aku baru jer habis 2nd Online Formative Assessment tadi.. How was it? Ermmmm tak tau lah nak cakap camne.. Aku tak tau pe yg aku dah jawab.. nmpk soalan, baca pastu fahamkan sikit2 terus submit answer.. belum tau lagi markah dia.. pukul 5 baru bleh check.. U know what, mlm tadi sblum test, aku n housemates buatlah kuiz.. Aku dh hbis bce semua la tp pharmaco yg paling lama aku dh bce about a month ago.. pastu ble revise balik mlm tdi, ya Allah,aku tak tau apelah yg aku ingat.. Hush, terus aku cuak kot!!! dh la tu, human development pon, microbio n all d hormones.. perghhh aku dh stres giler malam tadi!!! camne ntah nak jwab test.. last2 pasrah jela melangkah ke e-lab pagi tadi.. jwab jela pape yg ingat.. skrg ni tgh pasrah la ni, xtau la camne markah.. menurun? menaik? kekal?? takpe Nadiah, always remember..

ALLAH GIVES U WHAT U NEED, NOT WHAT U WANT.. :')

Bismillahitawakkaltualallahhh.. :')

Okay, mmandangkan dah nk dekat final exam, 2 months lagi kot.. Aku nk kne prepare betol2 nih!! So lpsni, dh kne start revise biochem n anatomy semula.. It's a MUST!!!!!
Kne fahamkan instead of hafal.. nak kne pegi medical museum la nk hafal all d models so that aku ingat anatomy! serius, kne wat study group awal2, bukannye one night before test.. tension kot! rse mcm nk blackout kpale otak! OVERLOADED!! Ya Allah, berkatilah perancangan aku ni.. May U ease my journey to be a good doctor! ingat Nadiah, mesti betol kan niat dulu mula2.. Why u wanna be a doctor??
SEBAB AKU NAK TOLONG ORG2 YG MMERLUKAN... dats my main niat! Insya-Allah everything would be okay if it's started with a good intention.. :')

Thank you.

Sincerely, Nadiah.

p/s: harap2 okay laaaa markah OFA 2 nih.. :')

I am an IMU student #1

Assalamualaikum..
Hai blog! Ape khabar ?? Hehehe.. Moga2 sihat lah hendaknya.. Oh tajuk blog aku xleh blah.. Why so sudden?? Entahlaaa rase mcm aku xpnah jer citer pe aku wat kt IMU.. Knape ttibe aku menulis?? Free sangat?? NOPE.. I'm gonna have 2nd test on 28th of June..giler tak giler tak hbis lagi kot revise everything.. tetibe rase nk blogging plak..

Ermmm where should i start? Im not sure yet.. errrr ok lets start with classes.. Timetable kat imu ni memang tak tetap.. kadang2 tu free sangat sampai de 1 kelas je in one day.. tapi kalau dh hectic, mmg dr pukul 8am smpai 6pm! fuhhhh penat nk mampus ar klau camtu.. U know what, pejam celik pejam celik, next week dh last lecture!!!! pergh, time flies!!!!! ~ Mngikut kiraan nini, in total we have 145 lecture notes.. fuhh, dont underestimate that number.. tu baru no. of lecture notes, u guys should know d thickness of all d notes.. tebal siot!!!!! after binding everything, ada dlm 10 set gitu, each one tebal agak2 1inch.. bleh bayang tak?? tak cukup lagi?? just imagine how many terms dat i need to remember!! biochem, anatomy, pharmaco, microbio.. >.< Serius byk n pelik2 weh!!!!!!!!!!! judging from d 1st test, mmg teruk gak ar.. 22/40.. cukup2 mkn la nk lulus.. kt imu passing mark, 50%.. too low?? yeah sbb kan soalan dia susah nk mampus sbb tu lah passing mark agak rendah.. (susah bg aku lah kot huhuhu..) oh lupe nk cakap, it's an oline formative test.. online? ye buat gne komputer.. formative?? bnde tu x masuk utk final.. nasib baik!! =='

Next, citer pasal lecturers laa.. dorg sume mmg super duper expert yg mmg hebat2 sume bnde dh mlekat dlm kepala.. pasal bones, saraf n tulang tu dia bleh ingatkan everything kot! giler laaa.. pastu pling kagum kat lecturer ni nama Dr. Vijay smangat giler mngajar! He's a Sri Lankan if im not mistaken tp English dia ok n he's really enjoy teaching! mmg faham giler klau dia ajar! dia suke giler wat simulasi kt depan bg kitorg faham.. COOL! kadang2 aku kesian kt lecturer sbb ade budak mcm de ckp2 time dia mngajar smpai bleh ganggu og lain yg nk blajar... (aku prnah rse mse duduk kt bhagian blkg, serius xleh nk concentrate!) tulah, org lain x cam kte.. Bg kte,berkat cikgu2 tu penting sangat.. kt U nih, i pay to study, so suke ati aku la nak watpe..errr.. susah klau camni..

oh ye, bout other classes besides lecture.. I have PBL (problem-based learning) session, CSU (clinical skill unit) n MMS (medical museum session).. I just love everything! utk PBL, mula2 tu mmg aku cm malu2 n inferior sket.. aku tak biase sgt communicate in english ni.. lagi2 nk express idea, takut btol org tgok pe aku ckp salah.. tp tu lah,lme2 aku cm dh gain confidence, rase best lak PBL.. dlm PBL, ade 2 sesi, 1st session kne bincang pasal case yg diberi.. then fikir la learning outcome n any relevant information to search.. then, 1 week later, sesi ke2 baru bincangkan pe yg kte dh dpt cari n exchange ideas.. baguslah ade PBL ni sbb kte bleh apply pe yg kte dh blaja dlm lecture.. bleh tau isu2 semasa, think bout ethical isssues, doctor's professionalism etc.
Pastu aku de CSU, dia ni mcm kelas utk berlatih jdi doktor sbenar.. dlm ni blaja nk communicate dgn patients, about history taking, physical examination, blood pressure measuring, vital signs etc. bagus ade sesi ni, kte dh terdedah dr awal on what a doctor should do in future.. serius, sume bnde in English n aku mmg ade msalah cm biase mula2 nk communicate..lama2 wat bodo jer, cakap jela..hehehe.. If we wanna learn, we need to be brave to make mistake.. mne de org perfect.. heheh (ayat nk sedapkan hati.. ;p)
Last but not least, ade MMS.. I like MMS sooooo much! serius, pe yg kte blaja x semestinya kte faham.. ble de MMS kte cm didedahkn dgn soalan aplikasi.. nk tgok kte fham tak dgn pe kte blaja.. anatomy dpt tgk dekat2..ade model, ade cadaver lagi! hehehehe.. lagi best klau MMS dpt lecturers best2.. dorg bgi cara senang nak ingat some parts of bodies, atretries, nerves etc.. :D

Ohhh lupe nak citer pasal lab.. aku suke de lab gak.. tp tu lah 1 thing aku blaja, kne study before gi lab.. sbb ble dh de kt lab, dia assume kte dh tau semua! lagi2 pathology! perghhh blur giler kot msuk2 x study pape alih2 tgk slide observe cells.. pe bnde nk tgok cell semua sme.. microbio pn sama gk.. mmg kne familiarize la dgn medically important bacteria, parasites, viruses, fungi etc.. bleh rse down kot klau x faham.. hushhh.. aku klau dh geram x faham balik2 terus study tajuk tu mcm nk giler sbb geram pye pasal.. bgusnye dpt faham, tak bgusnye stres ar sikit..

Now citer pasal activities plak.. ktsini aku join 3 program stakat ni.. Malay Debate, Muslim Society (MSoc) --> program ihya' ramadan n charity run! Really busy woaaaaa!!!!!! kalau de debat, pukul 9 mlm bru aku balik.. kesian hsemates tak tgok muka aku smpai ke malam.. Charity Run aku de tugas bwh Registration Team.. biaselah, team ni mmg sibuk uruskan org nk register jek.. aku uruskn oline registration.. Aku bkn nk mrungut ke ape,aku mmg ikhlas join sume sbb gatal2 nk mnyibukkan diri.. biaselah 1st sem, mst nk experience mcm2.. lgi 1 sbb partner medical school kt oversea nk tgok co-curricular activities.. so aku kne lah prepare gk utk mse dpan... hrap2 aku dpt improve communication skills aku as well..

Okay tu jela stakat ni, coretan tentang hidup seorang pelajar perubatan di IMU..
Insya-Allah, i'll do everything to achieve my dream!!! :D

p/s: yeah, medic's life is quite stressful lagi2 ble kne htr assignment n nak exam! >.<

Goodbye Twitter

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Yeah, today is 7th of May.. I'm 20 today! :) Alhamdulillah all praises to Allah for another year of life.. :)
Thanks to parents for taking care of me for 20 yrs, showering me with love and happiness..
Thanks to my siblings for filling my life with laughter and tears that we always share together! :)
Thanks to all friends who always pray d best for me.. even though some people didn't wish me but that's not a way to gauge the value of friendship :)

Yeah, I deleted my twitter account. I realised that I'd been so expressive since I have my twitter where I can express any thought without considering others' feelings. Twitter teaches me to be more expressive, harsh, hot-tempered and many more. I know there's always positive sides of it but negative effects always outweigh the good ones.. I even hurt my best friend's feeling.. It's all because of unmentioned tweet.. I'm so sad, i'm so regret, i'm so depressed..

To keep my level of sanity and to become a better person with good values..
Hereby,I,  Nadiah Noor Azman, officially 20yrs old today have deleted my twitter account.

R.I.P u twitter.. :')

When u have feeling to someone....

As a normal person, it's not an exception for me too to have crush to someone..
Somehow, we never know who would be our lifetime partner.. Are we gonna make a right choice??
So, the only think i can do is to pray...

     " Dear Allah.. If that person is really meant for me, make him closer to me..but if he's not the one, keep him away from me.."

That's the best! Having crush is just like gambling where you put your feeling as a trade.. Nahhh, Allah knows what's the best! It's not wrong to have feeling to someone.. It's normal..
Our limbic system does secrete chemical that can make us fall in love to someone.. No one can be blamed..hihi..

A-level results..All Praises for Allah..

Alhamdulillah.. ya Allah, aku mmg btol2 tak sangka tgok result aku!!!
Well, nak dijadikan citer, aku sbnrnye target aku pling tinggi pon dpt 14 jer, bio B la pling tinggi.. then, 1 day before results keluar, mdm shanti ckp all of us passed with at least 14 pts.. so ade org dpt 14 lah kot.. aku rse, konfem aku! pastu, aku ttibe rse cam taknak caya lah aku passed.. ntah2 mdm salah tgok,,xpon mdm saje nk sdapkan hati.. so aku brdebar2 mnunggu the real day for results announcement.. 7th of March 2013!
mse dpt jer slip results, aku cm tak taw nk bce..byk sgt huruf ats slip tu.. pastu ble tgok, overall i got AAA, bio A, chem A n maths+stats A!!! alhamdulillah 15!!!!
aku mmg tak caye weyhhh.. aku xde pon target nk dpt A*.. btol lah, ape yg kte target insya-Allah tu yg kte dpt.. mmg aku slalu doa nk dpt all A's bkn all A* 's.. tp aku mmg saaaaaaaangat brsyukur!!!
yelah, trial exam aku dpt 12 jer! ABC.. bio C beb!!! mmg sblm exam pon nangis teruk giler!
tu yg buat aku rse tergamam tgok results sndiri.. aku post kt fb pon psal results sbb nk org dpt smangat! wlaupun trial teruk, kte bleh gak dpt stret A's!!!! alhamdulillah..
happy sgt ble abah n ibu hepy! angah, ipah n barep pon.. everyone was really happy!
dlm mngalirkan mata kegembiraan, aku mmg terus teringat ayat: La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus'aha.. "allah won't test u if u're not strong enough to face it.." :')
Dear Allah, may this is d best path for me.. i asked for d best, so ini yg telah kau kurniakn pd ku.. Hopefully my journey to be a doctor would be blissful.. :) aminnn~

My Worry and Hope

Yeah, since I'm in writing mood, I wanna continue updating my blog..
Ok, my 걱정..
Actually, my biggest worry right now would be my A-level results..
Well, I'm here to tell what will happen if I don't pass my A-level..
I need to get at least 14 pts (AAB) in my A-level to study in IMU.. I got once 14pts when I was in sem 1.. Alhamdulillah but after that no more.. So, it's kind of tensed to think of this.. If I get 13pts, MAYBE I'll be staying in IMU for local course.. Bye2 Aussie! If I got below than 13, I might be changed to other U in India or Indonesia.. So, I need to wait for 6 months as I would fly together with the normal trackers.. Fuhh.. The worse part, below than 11, I need to change my course!! :( Oh, this is bad! I can't take medicine! Here comes the worst part! Below than 9 pts, I need to pay JPA back! Ohh, how scary it is! I just can't imagine my future.. What people would think? What they would say? What my parents would feel? How can I encounter the failure???? Oh, to think of this just can make my brain burst!

However, I can't do anything now.. I just can leave everything to Allah.. I know whatever results I got must have its hidden 'hikmah'.. That's the only hope i have now.. my 기대..
To end this scary posts, I really hope Allah would give the best for me! If I can't enter imu, maybe it's because I can't cope with stress while studying medicine there in future.. MAYBE.. If I study in India or Indonesia, I can have a joyful study.. MAYBE.. We just don't know.. Allah holds our future..
Bismillahitawakkaltualallah.. :')

안녕하세요

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Assalamualaikum, 안녕하세요..
Wohoo, it's been awhile i haven't update my blog..  미안해..
First of all, sorry if i use any korean words in my post.. I'm a 한국 learner currently..hehe

Alhamdulillah, i just finished my A-level and had been graduated from INTEC.. still unbelievable but yeah, it's true and now i'm looking forward to start my medicine study in IMU, insya-Allah..
what should i say? what should i say??
이게, let me tell u about d A-level exam that i already took..
well, i had 십팔 (18) papers in total, 6 papers for bio, 6 papers for chem, 4 papers for maths and 2 papers for statistics.. well, i just can't imagine how i managed to sit for all the papers in 3 weeks.. seriously, not many gaps at all between all those papers.. i just rely everything on my preparation 1 month before the exam.. I won't forget night before the first paper I cried badly and talked with tears through phone with my abah.. I suddenly felt demotivated to think of my trial results.. i got ABC = 12pts which didn't meet the requirement to enter IMU.. After some words from parents, siblings and friends I manage to get back my focus to sit for the exam.. The condition was so tensed on that moment..

Some papers are very tough!! Most of papers were different from the past years papers.. they changed the trend! as for me who never rely on past papers, felt the same difficulty as I had my trial papers.. is it an advantage? I don't know either.. Every time I answer my paper, I just think that I'll do my best regardless of the difficulty! I just 'tawakal', leave everything to Allah after finished answering..
So in conclusion, A-level is DIFFICULT!! I just can't imagine how people scored A*!! perghhh.. and also people who sit for STPM, the hardest exam in the world! i just can't imagine.. A-level is the 3rd hardest..
Okay, that's all I want to share about my A-level..
I think my friends in normal track are luckier because they have more time to prepare! They even have less lecture in 4th sem, will be having trial exam earlier and of course, less packed A-level schedule..
Somehow, I still thank Allah for giving me opportunity to be a fast-tracker.. I'm so lucky to be selected! I know, Allah always give the best for us..
I always remember this verse: لا يكلف الله نفسا الا وسعها
I coincidentally read this verse in mathurat while I was crying in 2nd sem.. :')
It means: Allah won't test you if you're not strong enough to face it.. SO BEAUTIFUL!

Dear Allah, please make everything easy for me :) Insya-Allah..
okay, 안녕히가세요..