When u have feeling to someone....

As a normal person, it's not an exception for me too to have crush to someone..
Somehow, we never know who would be our lifetime partner.. Are we gonna make a right choice??
So, the only think i can do is to pray...

     " Dear Allah.. If that person is really meant for me, make him closer to me..but if he's not the one, keep him away from me.."

That's the best! Having crush is just like gambling where you put your feeling as a trade.. Nahhh, Allah knows what's the best! It's not wrong to have feeling to someone.. It's normal..
Our limbic system does secrete chemical that can make us fall in love to someone.. No one can be blamed..hihi..

A-level results..All Praises for Allah..

Alhamdulillah.. ya Allah, aku mmg btol2 tak sangka tgok result aku!!!
Well, nak dijadikan citer, aku sbnrnye target aku pling tinggi pon dpt 14 jer, bio B la pling tinggi.. then, 1 day before results keluar, mdm shanti ckp all of us passed with at least 14 pts.. so ade org dpt 14 lah kot.. aku rse, konfem aku! pastu, aku ttibe rse cam taknak caya lah aku passed.. ntah2 mdm salah tgok,,xpon mdm saje nk sdapkan hati.. so aku brdebar2 mnunggu the real day for results announcement.. 7th of March 2013!
mse dpt jer slip results, aku cm tak taw nk bce..byk sgt huruf ats slip tu.. pastu ble tgok, overall i got AAA, bio A, chem A n maths+stats A!!! alhamdulillah 15!!!!
aku mmg tak caye weyhhh.. aku xde pon target nk dpt A*.. btol lah, ape yg kte target insya-Allah tu yg kte dpt.. mmg aku slalu doa nk dpt all A's bkn all A* 's.. tp aku mmg saaaaaaaangat brsyukur!!!
yelah, trial exam aku dpt 12 jer! ABC.. bio C beb!!! mmg sblm exam pon nangis teruk giler!
tu yg buat aku rse tergamam tgok results sndiri.. aku post kt fb pon psal results sbb nk org dpt smangat! wlaupun trial teruk, kte bleh gak dpt stret A's!!!! alhamdulillah..
happy sgt ble abah n ibu hepy! angah, ipah n barep pon.. everyone was really happy!
dlm mngalirkan mata kegembiraan, aku mmg terus teringat ayat: La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus'aha.. "allah won't test u if u're not strong enough to face it.." :')
Dear Allah, may this is d best path for me.. i asked for d best, so ini yg telah kau kurniakn pd ku.. Hopefully my journey to be a doctor would be blissful.. :) aminnn~

My Worry and Hope

Yeah, since I'm in writing mood, I wanna continue updating my blog..
Ok, my 걱정..
Actually, my biggest worry right now would be my A-level results..
Well, I'm here to tell what will happen if I don't pass my A-level..
I need to get at least 14 pts (AAB) in my A-level to study in IMU.. I got once 14pts when I was in sem 1.. Alhamdulillah but after that no more.. So, it's kind of tensed to think of this.. If I get 13pts, MAYBE I'll be staying in IMU for local course.. Bye2 Aussie! If I got below than 13, I might be changed to other U in India or Indonesia.. So, I need to wait for 6 months as I would fly together with the normal trackers.. Fuhh.. The worse part, below than 11, I need to change my course!! :( Oh, this is bad! I can't take medicine! Here comes the worst part! Below than 9 pts, I need to pay JPA back! Ohh, how scary it is! I just can't imagine my future.. What people would think? What they would say? What my parents would feel? How can I encounter the failure???? Oh, to think of this just can make my brain burst!

However, I can't do anything now.. I just can leave everything to Allah.. I know whatever results I got must have its hidden 'hikmah'.. That's the only hope i have now.. my 기대..
To end this scary posts, I really hope Allah would give the best for me! If I can't enter imu, maybe it's because I can't cope with stress while studying medicine there in future.. MAYBE.. If I study in India or Indonesia, I can have a joyful study.. MAYBE.. We just don't know.. Allah holds our future..
Bismillahitawakkaltualallah.. :')

안녕하세요

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Assalamualaikum, 안녕하세요..
Wohoo, it's been awhile i haven't update my blog..  미안해..
First of all, sorry if i use any korean words in my post.. I'm a 한국 learner currently..hehe

Alhamdulillah, i just finished my A-level and had been graduated from INTEC.. still unbelievable but yeah, it's true and now i'm looking forward to start my medicine study in IMU, insya-Allah..
what should i say? what should i say??
이게, let me tell u about d A-level exam that i already took..
well, i had 십팔 (18) papers in total, 6 papers for bio, 6 papers for chem, 4 papers for maths and 2 papers for statistics.. well, i just can't imagine how i managed to sit for all the papers in 3 weeks.. seriously, not many gaps at all between all those papers.. i just rely everything on my preparation 1 month before the exam.. I won't forget night before the first paper I cried badly and talked with tears through phone with my abah.. I suddenly felt demotivated to think of my trial results.. i got ABC = 12pts which didn't meet the requirement to enter IMU.. After some words from parents, siblings and friends I manage to get back my focus to sit for the exam.. The condition was so tensed on that moment..

Some papers are very tough!! Most of papers were different from the past years papers.. they changed the trend! as for me who never rely on past papers, felt the same difficulty as I had my trial papers.. is it an advantage? I don't know either.. Every time I answer my paper, I just think that I'll do my best regardless of the difficulty! I just 'tawakal', leave everything to Allah after finished answering..
So in conclusion, A-level is DIFFICULT!! I just can't imagine how people scored A*!! perghhh.. and also people who sit for STPM, the hardest exam in the world! i just can't imagine.. A-level is the 3rd hardest..
Okay, that's all I want to share about my A-level..
I think my friends in normal track are luckier because they have more time to prepare! They even have less lecture in 4th sem, will be having trial exam earlier and of course, less packed A-level schedule..
Somehow, I still thank Allah for giving me opportunity to be a fast-tracker.. I'm so lucky to be selected! I know, Allah always give the best for us..
I always remember this verse: لا يكلف الله نفسا الا وسعها
I coincidentally read this verse in mathurat while I was crying in 2nd sem.. :')
It means: Allah won't test you if you're not strong enough to face it.. SO BEAUTIFUL!

Dear Allah, please make everything easy for me :) Insya-Allah..
okay, 안녕히가세요..

Last Day as a 305 member

Assalamualaikum..anyeong!!
heyyy, finally I'm home!! I'd just finished my final semester..
First of all, I would like to thank Allah, the most gracious one for all the happiness that I felt these days..
Alhamdulillah..
1. I passed my IELTS requirement
2. I passed my interview for IMU placement..^^

Well, I'd done my trial exam n muet.. entahla, what the results would be.. I just leave everything to Allah.. but seriously my trial exam was sooooo hard that really make me realize i need to do a lot more revision for my upcoming A-level exam in January..nadiah!! go for 15 points!!!! errr muet?? aku xde wat pape preparation kot.. but everything was ok kot cuma listening tuh susah ar sket.. aku mmg lambat btol bab2 listening nih! bismillahitawakkaltu alallah..

Okay, now let me share about my last day with classmates and housemates.. It was really superb! habis2 jer muet terus gi Setia City Mall.. giler x leh blah tp nk wat cmne, that's the only time for us to spend together before going back home.. so, me, asmot, notnot,awa,nadrah,ada n jiranku di bilik bawah,yana went to that BIG, super new shopping complex in shah alam..
We did enjoy ourselves walking, chattering, eating, shopping and ofcourse taking pictures together! erm, it was really amazing until words can't describe them all..so, let me attach some lovely pictures of us!

Me with housemates n jiran

Me with classmates

like the angle!! ^^

Site pling cantik!! loike it ^^

eyh eyh?? asmot yg snap!

awa mnggambarkan kpedasan wrap.. HOT!

alalala lawa2 sume! ^o^

Okayy, on the next day after that trip, i decided to spend my whole day with my housemates.. Seharian suntuk di Seksyen 18, Shah Alam.. mula2 makan secret recipe with nadrah, pastu gi karoks, main bowling, buat birthday prank utk Nadrah which should be on 17th of Dec..hewhew.. and the most important part! aku kne prank.. dorang buat special video for me.. smpena perpisahan kami! uuuuu tacing btol!

Love u all!!!! :')

Birthday prank Nadrah!

Goodbye!!

Thanks korang!!

Yeahhh that's the end.. Hopefully all of us manage to succeed and be a good doctor in the future.. Insya-Allah.. May our friendship long last!! ^^ 

IMU Interview

Assalamualaikum..
Owww, it had been ages I didn't update this blog..*sigh*
Well,regarding my tittle.. i just wanna write about it because it was my FIRST time to have such an official interview which is really important..in determining my DESTINY! walaweyhhh..
16 October 2012.. yeah, that is the date..

Place: INTEC, ALM Square
Room: 117
Candidate number: 3 (right after two brilliant guys, Rizqin Syahmi and Sajid Nabiel)
Interviewer: I don't know their names but there are two of them, one Sikh male doctor and one Chinese female pharmacist

At first, I just take this interview for granted because I didn't know what to do.. thinking of doing the same thing like JPA interview.. BUT, after having interview briefing and also some advice from my friends, I really thought that this interview is totally IMPORTANT and complicated..
I need to wear something really smart and formal.. well, it's really NOT ME! I need to spend some time buying high heels and blazer.. for the sake of interview, I bought all!!!

On that day, just 26 of us the fast trackers who would be having the interview.. well, it's really obvious for everyone to know that we're going to be interviewed, judging from our attire and also file of certs!
I was really nervous since the night before.. luckily my housemates were REALLY CARING + KIND to help me prepare myself up with my practice, attire and also giving me spirit.. It was really touched to see everyone cared for each other.. I could see the unity among ALM students when everyone did support their friends.. ahhhh so shweeeeet!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, after being called by the interviewer, I went into the room 117..
His first question was.. " Are u nervous?" I just smiled and said " yeah, quite nervous!"
Then the interview started.. Some general questions like:
1. Where do u come from? (He was really excited talking about Nilai 3.. :) )
2. Tell about yourself (I was kind of blur, didn't know what else to say as he had mentioned my point! )
3. My hobbies ( He laughed when I said I loved to watch Doraemon.. lol.. even the Chinese woman laughed at me while kept on nodding her head..)
4. Qualities of you
5. Specialist
6. Questions regarding our certs.. ( chess competition, co-curricular activity, etc.)
7. Case study! ( a section that everyone afraid of! )
    I got question just like the one in the list from seniors.. about ship wreck and who are the 7 that u would choose to be in the lifeboat.. seriously I didn't understand the question as the the question was reallyyyyy long! I asked him to clarify and he gave me a new situation.. lol, he laughed when i told that i wanna throw out the old people.. well, as expected he did question my choice but I managed to stick to my stand until the end! YEAY!

Lastly, he opened for any question from me.. I really wanna ask whether I could pass this interview but I was afraid to know the truth so I just asked him " Do you think I should improve anything about myself to be a better doctor?" He said, " Nothing.. You are quite good..bla bla bla " ( Is it a good sign??? )
From this interview, i really enjoyed the communication I had with my interviewers.. They are all nice and friendly! not as scary as I thought..

Alhamdulillah, it was over.. I felt extremely relief until I almost forgot that my trial is just around the corner! anyway, I can't predict the result as IMU is really unpredictable in selecting their students.. Hopefully, 26 of us would manage to enter IMU, amin! Bismillahitawakkaltualallah..
Thanks to everybody for their support.. parents, lecturers, teachers, housemates, classmates and ALM friends! :)

Random Expression 1

My throat is choking up,
I can't even speak..
I'm blankly looking to the sky and crying,
I try to forget you,please let me alone,forgetting you..
I keep telling myself to stop,
I'm wounded inside, I'm burning inside...
I tell myself, I won't have anything like love,
Stop, forget it! Please forget it!
But your images come back to my heart,
It doesn't matter if you forget me..
I will be okay after a few days,
I fall asleep after laughing and crying..
I pick up my phone, the put it down,
I'm like a fool, just like a fool..
Why am I like this??
I miss you like i'm going crazy,
I'm tired, i'm so tired, my tears cover my eyes..
I erased the thought of you but still it came again..

*sigh..